Well this christmas I am in Waycross, Ga...with my husband, my best friend Tenisha, her sister Tamara and Alden. I got three things for christmas. A laptop which I am using right now and I love it, an outfit and a new wedding ring set from Kay Jewelers. Itell you I love this man. He's so good to me I have to give him something...having a man like I have honestly makes me want to be a better wife. I apreciate everything he does for me and I am looking for better days ahead wuth him. I love you Alajuwon.
Other than that I didn't do too much i got some rest that I really needed last week at work was very hectic for me and it's only gonna get even more crazy but my supervisor will be on vacay all next week and I will be enjoying it to the fullest.
I basically spent my holidays with the Flynns. My uncles do a concert every year and this time I lead a sing which was a great honor to me and i believe they were pleased. I thank God for him blessing me for this i am very grateful. I always enjoyed seeing my grandparents and my aunt, uncles and many cousins but one person was missing......my Dad. As I stated in my last post, my father died three years ago but it feels like he just couldn't make it and is still in Atlanta working. It's still hard to believe that He's gone sometimes I do get emotional and I guess after three years I would be better than I was in 2008 and I am a lot stronger than I was but it still hurts sometimes I still wanna cry and hope I hear him tell me it's ok.
I try not to blame myself for the things that happened in the past between him and myself and also with my mother. Oh how I wish things were different but I cannot change everything. Oh how I wish I could take back the things I did or didn't do or even what I thought but I cannot. All I can is that I loved when I was 3, when I was 12 when I was 19 and now that I am 26. I love you Richard Venturi Flynn and I always will...
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
What's been going on
Well it has been a minute since I blogged because I haven't really had anything to blog about but I will do another post about my Hair update later.
A lot has been going since October until now. My uncle-in law passed away November 7th due to complications from diabetes that later led to cardiac arrest. He had been sick and had been suffering a very long time and God saw it fit that it was time to call him home. His death was a shocker to my in-laws.... the first to die out 12 kids. Yes 12 kids....my mother in law is the oldest. I saw a lot of people hurt and confused and just in shock. My husband was very hurt and I aslo saw things all but too familiar...I went through the same thing three years ago only it was my father, he died on November 29th 2008 from a heart attack and was the first to die out of 8 kids and the effect was the same. After My uncle Tony's death a lot wasn't the same and the family is slowly and surely getting their lives back on track. Also my husband grandmother was hopsitalized as well during my uncle's death and burial. So please continue to pray for the family of Anthony B. James as well as the family of Richard V. Flynn.
A lot of things were also going on between my husband and I as well not bad but well a bit stressful. Just things that young married couples go through but in the end the Lord blessed us with a new car and it was the car that I always wanted...a Honda Accord. It's a 2004 Honda Accord. I thank God from His Blessings and Never ending favor on me and husband.
Ok now for the reasoning for this title of this post. It's true I really do need to tighten up on a lot of things with home, church, my job, my personal life etc. My husband has really been doing his thing I have to say that I am very proud of him and I love him dearly for it. Lol while I'm sitting at home or at work scratching my head about things he already took care of it. I think that have been lacking a lot of things lately. Well with cooking just to let it be known in my marriage my husband is the cook of the relationship....and this was established way before we got engaged. But I am starting to realized that things will change and expectations will change as we get older...
I want to do more as far as me being a better wife and woman of God. I mean my prayer life slacked off and I haven't been in my bible as well and I've been called out on my bluff many times so I am praying that God supplies my needs in these areas.
A lot has been going since October until now. My uncle-in law passed away November 7th due to complications from diabetes that later led to cardiac arrest. He had been sick and had been suffering a very long time and God saw it fit that it was time to call him home. His death was a shocker to my in-laws.... the first to die out 12 kids. Yes 12 kids....my mother in law is the oldest. I saw a lot of people hurt and confused and just in shock. My husband was very hurt and I aslo saw things all but too familiar...I went through the same thing three years ago only it was my father, he died on November 29th 2008 from a heart attack and was the first to die out of 8 kids and the effect was the same. After My uncle Tony's death a lot wasn't the same and the family is slowly and surely getting their lives back on track. Also my husband grandmother was hopsitalized as well during my uncle's death and burial. So please continue to pray for the family of Anthony B. James as well as the family of Richard V. Flynn.
A lot of things were also going on between my husband and I as well not bad but well a bit stressful. Just things that young married couples go through but in the end the Lord blessed us with a new car and it was the car that I always wanted...a Honda Accord. It's a 2004 Honda Accord. I thank God from His Blessings and Never ending favor on me and husband.
Ok now for the reasoning for this title of this post. It's true I really do need to tighten up on a lot of things with home, church, my job, my personal life etc. My husband has really been doing his thing I have to say that I am very proud of him and I love him dearly for it. Lol while I'm sitting at home or at work scratching my head about things he already took care of it. I think that have been lacking a lot of things lately. Well with cooking just to let it be known in my marriage my husband is the cook of the relationship....and this was established way before we got engaged. But I am starting to realized that things will change and expectations will change as we get older...
I want to do more as far as me being a better wife and woman of God. I mean my prayer life slacked off and I haven't been in my bible as well and I've been called out on my bluff many times so I am praying that God supplies my needs in these areas.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Hair Update
Well since the last hair update post my hair was in braids and wearing them did me some good. I kept them moisturized and clean. I must admit I am a scratcher and will never stop anytime soon it's just will be something that I will have to deal with. On October 28 I took them out because the new grow was getting out of had. It took me 4 hours to take them all out....I remember my arms, back and eyes were hurting after I was done. I was 14 weeks post at the time. When I took my braids out my hair was soo soft and shiny... you could really tell I took care of my hair while it was braided. I set my relaxer date for November 4th which would be @ 15 weeks post . I didn't want to relax it as soon as I took my braids out because of all the scratching I did so I decided to wait until the date that I set. To do this I did two protective styles to get through this week...from sunday to wednesday I did a bun out of regular braiding hair that was inspired by a youtuber named MsVCharles...she is natural and I always wanted to do it but never made the time until now. I think form now on this how I am going to do my buns...I really don't like the buns that have the synthetic hair anymore because it looks so unnatural. Because of the unbearable itching i took it out and was about to do a co-wash until one day I was looking at my hair and was really admiring my new growth that I decided to try the bantu knots again after several failed attempts....it was 6:00 when I twisted them and kept them on until it was time for me to go to work.....and it came out really nice and decided to wear them until friday and surprisingly I got a few compliments on my hair as well. When Friday came I relaxed my hair using my #1 fav ORS Olive Oil Relaxer...I use the professional extra strength...I always get good results with my hair when usinf this relaxer. This relaxer was very successful I got no chemical burns at all and no tangles because I decided to rinse my hair in the shower it's so much easier that way but I need to buy a hairstopper so my shedded hair won't keep clogging up the tub.
I decided to air dry my hair because it was almost 11:00 and I didn't eat yet and was tired. Also because I am flat ironing my hair cause my husband wants me to wear my hair down for church tomorrow and I didn't want to use too much heat. My hair looks soo good now that my ends are trimmed and as far as length goes I think I may have some length I don't think I'm APL yet but maybe I'll make it in 2012 my goal is too get to APL at least by my 27th birthday.
Ohh and I just remember that I've been on my hair journey for a year actually it was last week cause I started the last week in October so I am going strong. This stretch was a whole lot better this time cause I was able to manage it by tweaking a few things in my regimen like with my airdrying. Thanks to Hairliscous scarf method air drying is easier now.
So for this stretching season will be just me keeping my hair healthy and I may repeat this process again by getting my hair braided at 10 weeks I will try to make it to 20 weeks before my next relaxer I don't know do ya'll think I make it that far....we shall see. Maybe this time I'll get kinky twists with some color and speaking of color I think I want some color in my hair but I don't know what to get considering the last time I had color in my hair it was 2004 and it ended up breaking my hair out and later on cutting it all off.
I decided to air dry my hair because it was almost 11:00 and I didn't eat yet and was tired. Also because I am flat ironing my hair cause my husband wants me to wear my hair down for church tomorrow and I didn't want to use too much heat. My hair looks soo good now that my ends are trimmed and as far as length goes I think I may have some length I don't think I'm APL yet but maybe I'll make it in 2012 my goal is too get to APL at least by my 27th birthday.
Ohh and I just remember that I've been on my hair journey for a year actually it was last week cause I started the last week in October so I am going strong. This stretch was a whole lot better this time cause I was able to manage it by tweaking a few things in my regimen like with my airdrying. Thanks to Hairliscous scarf method air drying is easier now.
So for this stretching season will be just me keeping my hair healthy and I may repeat this process again by getting my hair braided at 10 weeks I will try to make it to 20 weeks before my next relaxer I don't know do ya'll think I make it that far....we shall see. Maybe this time I'll get kinky twists with some color and speaking of color I think I want some color in my hair but I don't know what to get considering the last time I had color in my hair it was 2004 and it ended up breaking my hair out and later on cutting it all off.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Wish List
Well I got some good news and bad news....
The bad news is when I went out of town with my husband two weeks ago....he left my makeup bag in the rental car that we had :(
I'm talking about too mad cause all my eye shadows, primers, concealors and things were in that bag so now I am limited with a few things and have been left with the make up products that I really didn't care for so with that I have to replace a few items that I had. I just thank God that I left my MAC Studio Tech in my purse. So here's what I have to replace...
Loreal Decrease (Eye Primer)
NYX Jumbo Pencil in Milk (i may have to get the eyeshadow base NYX has)
Wet n Wild H2O Proof Liquid Eyeliner (I hate the regular one) (will be getting this asap)
Wet n Wild palettes in Vanity and Greed ( So mad cause they're discounting)
A few NYX Lipglosses
Two ELF Palettes
My NYC Loose powder (will replace with Black Opal loose powder)
Iman Foundation Stick in Earth 5 (it was too light to use as a foundation so I use it as a concealer and I loved it soo much)
A few Wet n Wild lipsticks
My brand new Elf powder brush ( I loved that brush for foundation)
Yeah I had a lot of stuff....the good thing is that I got most of this stuff from the drugstore so I can afford to replace them all...
The good news is that I will be getting a 120 palette...my mom bought it for me. I am really excited to see it.....it's the BH Cosmetics 120 palette 4th edition. I did hear that it was very shimmery and honestly I am a matte fan so I plan to buy another edition since there was no more that $30.00. So I see that I am started to get into the palette mania cause they are pretty good for beginners like me and I want to experiment with colors.
so these are the ones that am getting every paycheck
BH Cosmetics 120 palette 2nd Edition
BH Cosmetics 120 palette 3rd Edition
BH Cosmetics 28 Neutral Palette
I also want black radiance primer as well so this is an opportunity to get some new things to try out...and really build my makeup kit
Be Blessed
The bad news is when I went out of town with my husband two weeks ago....he left my makeup bag in the rental car that we had :(
I'm talking about too mad cause all my eye shadows, primers, concealors and things were in that bag so now I am limited with a few things and have been left with the make up products that I really didn't care for so with that I have to replace a few items that I had. I just thank God that I left my MAC Studio Tech in my purse. So here's what I have to replace...
Loreal Decrease (Eye Primer)
NYX Jumbo Pencil in Milk (i may have to get the eyeshadow base NYX has)
Wet n Wild H2O Proof Liquid Eyeliner (I hate the regular one) (will be getting this asap)
Wet n Wild palettes in Vanity and Greed ( So mad cause they're discounting)
A few NYX Lipglosses
Two ELF Palettes
My NYC Loose powder (will replace with Black Opal loose powder)
Iman Foundation Stick in Earth 5 (it was too light to use as a foundation so I use it as a concealer and I loved it soo much)
A few Wet n Wild lipsticks
My brand new Elf powder brush ( I loved that brush for foundation)
Yeah I had a lot of stuff....the good thing is that I got most of this stuff from the drugstore so I can afford to replace them all...
The good news is that I will be getting a 120 palette...my mom bought it for me. I am really excited to see it.....it's the BH Cosmetics 120 palette 4th edition. I did hear that it was very shimmery and honestly I am a matte fan so I plan to buy another edition since there was no more that $30.00. So I see that I am started to get into the palette mania cause they are pretty good for beginners like me and I want to experiment with colors.
so these are the ones that am getting every paycheck
BH Cosmetics 120 palette 2nd Edition
BH Cosmetics 120 palette 3rd Edition
BH Cosmetics 28 Neutral Palette
I also want black radiance primer as well so this is an opportunity to get some new things to try out...and really build my makeup kit
Be Blessed
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Make Up Wish list
As much as I love makeup I an really suprised that I haven't talked about it that much on my blog I can't take a whole lot of pictures yet because I don't have an SD card on my phone so I can't take any pictures or make any videos yet so that's why I keep getting words right now and when I do take pictures it's from my husbands phone so when I get an SD card I will take pics of my FACE OF THE DAY's which is mainly sundays when I go to church or when I go out with my husband I honestly don't wear make up eveyday cause makeup ages you and I am not going to wake up @ 5 in the morning just to put on make up and sit in front of a computer and I'll also do Outfit of the Days as well I am not a fashion guru actually I am in transition of redoing my warobe and finding some things that I like that'll compliment my shape. So now let's talk about makeup lol....I finally found my foundation which is MAC's Studio Tech in NW45 I love that foundation. One reason is that it has caused an end of the search of a foundation that matches my skin I mean it's a literally dead match and I also realized that my skin is more of a red undertone than yellow lol that's why it was always too light.
Well here's my wishlist lol
with MAC I am still working on my face products cause I feel if that the face isn't right the whole look is just a mess
MAC Mineralized Skin Finish (think I would be in deepest dark idk)
MAC Prep n Prime Traslucent Powder
MAC Blushes in Raisin, Ambering Rose, Shadowy Lady I believe there's a few more than I want but I don't remember them all so I'll be checking the MAC website
MAC's Oil Control Lotion
MAC Fix+
MAC eyeshadows
Texture, Sketch, Woodwinked, Rice Paper, Typographic, Carbon, Coppering, Grain, Arena, Mulled Cider (ebay) Humid, Club, Motif, Brown Script, Orange, Stars and Rockets, Hepcat, Satin Taupe
MAC and other pigments
MAC lipsticks
Fresh Brew, Ciss, Ruby Woo, do want a pink lipstick just something that will compliment my skin tone
MAC Lipgloss
C-Thru, Revealing
Eye Shadow Palettes
Either BH Cosmetics or Sedona Lace
Nyx Cosmetics Eyeshadows and Matte Lipsticks
Sleek Makeup and I do need a decent makeup brush kit...it doesn't have to be MAC. Either Sigma or Crown Brushes
Another thing I need is a makeup case to store it all and a smaller makeupbag to take the makeup I'm gonna wear that day.
I do wanna try MAC StudioFix Fluid again because I heard they launched out more shades I do hope that it's permanent and not limited like the other stuff that comes out lol
I also wanna try Victoria's Secret Make up as well and I do want the Urban Decay Naked palette even though it's $50, I still want it.
And I also wanna try Inglot makeup and I would like to go to an IMATS or a makeup show if they ever have one in Florida.
I do need to take the makeup spree a break because I do need some more clother but I don't wanna go crazy until I lose weight.
I don't think I'll be a makeup artist right now I just wanna build up my personal make up kit.
As you guys can see I love makeup I love everything about it I love the creativity of it and the fact that it doesn't limit to one brand It's so may but MAC is my must have.
Well here's my wishlist lol
with MAC I am still working on my face products cause I feel if that the face isn't right the whole look is just a mess
MAC Mineralized Skin Finish (think I would be in deepest dark idk)
MAC Prep n Prime Traslucent Powder
MAC Blushes in Raisin, Ambering Rose, Shadowy Lady I believe there's a few more than I want but I don't remember them all so I'll be checking the MAC website
MAC's Oil Control Lotion
MAC Fix+
MAC eyeshadows
Texture, Sketch, Woodwinked, Rice Paper, Typographic, Carbon, Coppering, Grain, Arena, Mulled Cider (ebay) Humid, Club, Motif, Brown Script, Orange, Stars and Rockets, Hepcat, Satin Taupe
MAC and other pigments
MAC lipsticks
Fresh Brew, Ciss, Ruby Woo, do want a pink lipstick just something that will compliment my skin tone
MAC Lipgloss
C-Thru, Revealing
Eye Shadow Palettes
Either BH Cosmetics or Sedona Lace
Nyx Cosmetics Eyeshadows and Matte Lipsticks
Sleek Makeup and I do need a decent makeup brush kit...it doesn't have to be MAC. Either Sigma or Crown Brushes
Another thing I need is a makeup case to store it all and a smaller makeupbag to take the makeup I'm gonna wear that day.
I do wanna try MAC StudioFix Fluid again because I heard they launched out more shades I do hope that it's permanent and not limited like the other stuff that comes out lol
I also wanna try Victoria's Secret Make up as well and I do want the Urban Decay Naked palette even though it's $50, I still want it.
And I also wanna try Inglot makeup and I would like to go to an IMATS or a makeup show if they ever have one in Florida.
I do need to take the makeup spree a break because I do need some more clother but I don't wanna go crazy until I lose weight.
I don't think I'll be a makeup artist right now I just wanna build up my personal make up kit.
As you guys can see I love makeup I love everything about it I love the creativity of it and the fact that it doesn't limit to one brand It's so may but MAC is my must have.
My Weightloss Journey
This isn't a clear picture but this is the most recent picture I took which was last week during my church banquet. My husband got this dress from Ross lol I didn't like it at first because it wasn't what I would normally wear but after looking at it I see that it would look great on me and it does and I got a lot of compliments from it. Anywho but this is my most recent picture of my pretty self but my pretty 250lb body Oh God I am trying to figure out what did I do and how did I let myself get this big. Lol crazy enough I am my prettiest at this size but I suffered from being a size 18-20 too....With being an apple shape all my weight goes to my middle so as you can see and it doesn't feel good at all I now have high blood pressure from my weight gain I am always tired and dizzy and I've been sick and another thing is shopping is a pain in the butt and almost embarrassing...
You can't really see it but this is me in 2003 I was a size 13 and was happy even though I did go through a lot of critism from my family I really wish I would've loved myself more back then so I would have known better. Well that was 8 years ago and so much has happened during that time. Well all I know is that I gained a lot of weight thoughout that time period
This is me around the end of 2007 lol regarding to the date on the photo. This was when my husband and I first met I did gain weight since 2003 but I was still in the 100's....ok I inching up to 200 I was 170-180 I don't really remember. Well I know I do need to cut it out. Right now I am not doing anything right now cause I'n in the planning stages. My mom sent me an invitation to do Weight Watchers with her and honestly I'm really excited because I wanna get healthy again and feel better. I mean @ 26 sometimes I feel like I'm 46.
This is me last year I think was married for only 2-3 months. Oh GOD can you see the difference from 2007 to 2010....lol and I was at Denny's. It was after a concert so it was late maybe after 12am and I remembered what I ordered too. A Chicken Ranch melt (just a chicken sandwhich with ranch) and fries and I would always order a side of ranch dressing. And I know the drink alone was bad enough it was a drink that was tooo sugary.So yeah I know I'm not eating right and exercise lol Yeah right....not reguarly and not vigorously either...I was too cute lol( if my husband was reading this he would tell me that I'm conceited). So Along with my hair journey and my "All Things Beauty" journey lol I will be tracking my weightloss journey. I have been inspired by a few weightloss blogs that I've been reading like "Ro Gets Fit" and a few more and BeautifulBrnBabydol from youtube. I love her channell and I love how passionate she is about life period. She a good speaker just get on a pulpit lol well I don't know she's preacher but she has potential to be if God has the calling on her. So please pray for me as I get myself together for my weightloss journey. I know it ain't gonna be easy just like my hair journey isn't easy but lol once I start I'll keep going...
My weightloss goal is to lose 60 lbs for now to get myself going. My goal isn't to be skinny but to be healthy if I' back to a 13/14 I'll be cool the smallest would be a 12 that's it no smaller. I want my blood pressure to go down and to aviod diabetes even though it doesn't really run in my family not that I know of so please pray for me as I start and the Lord keeps me during this time.
Until Then Be Blessed.....
Hair Update
Just a quick post so I'll stay on track...I FINALLY got a trim thanks to my sister in law Tamika. I think I i'll be going to her to trim my ends. The plan is to trim off all the thin ends so I'll have healthy even hair all around right know I'll just space it out to every 4-6 months on trimming my ends as far as being on a schedule cause I'm still scared of losing lenght.....
Well as of Friday I will be 8 weeks post.....my stretch has been doing great daily moisturizing, shampoo and conditioning
Last saturday I did a protien treatment using Aphogee 2 Step Protien treatment I didn't have the balancing moisturizer so I used the Elasta QP intense Fortifying Conditioner. To me they are both the same....same consistency and smells the same I guess but it did what it needed to do and that was to soften my hair up after a hard protien treatment.
I think I needed it because I was shedding a lot so I felt I needed it.
Well for my protective style, for the past four weeks i've been just doing a ponytail with a clip leaving it up and then styling it for church but I just wanted to do my best to stop messing with it due to the fact that I have new grow and the fact that I trimmed my ends I should have a good relaxer update this time.
My protective style for the next two months hopefully is braids. My sister in law braided my hair and I'm loving it even though my head still hurts a little cause she braids so tight which is cool cause she braids fast and is very neat I love her. It took her two days because I couldn't take off due to me having to fill in for someone. So she crowned it tuesday night and finished the rest yesterday. She always teases me about me having a big head and the fact that I have thick hair but she always compliments my 3c-4a hair, and the fact she doesn't charge me is a cool factor too thanks to my husband. So right now it's in a low ponytail until it stops hurting I don't put too much tension on my hair right now cause it's soo tight right now so I'll give it a few days too loosen up.
So to maintain my braids I'll will learn how to wash and condition them, keep them moisturized and oil my scalp with my castor oil. So caring for my hair is still a must even with braids.
So I'll keep going until I reach APL.
Until then be blessed....
Last saturday I did a protien treatment using Aphogee 2 Step Protien treatment I didn't have the balancing moisturizer so I used the Elasta QP intense Fortifying Conditioner. To me they are both the same....same consistency and smells the same I guess but it did what it needed to do and that was to soften my hair up after a hard protien treatment.
I think I needed it because I was shedding a lot so I felt I needed it.
Well for my protective style, for the past four weeks i've been just doing a ponytail with a clip leaving it up and then styling it for church but I just wanted to do my best to stop messing with it due to the fact that I have new grow and the fact that I trimmed my ends I should have a good relaxer update this time.
My protective style for the next two months hopefully is braids. My sister in law braided my hair and I'm loving it even though my head still hurts a little cause she braids so tight which is cool cause she braids fast and is very neat I love her. It took her two days because I couldn't take off due to me having to fill in for someone. So she crowned it tuesday night and finished the rest yesterday. She always teases me about me having a big head and the fact that I have thick hair but she always compliments my 3c-4a hair, and the fact she doesn't charge me is a cool factor too thanks to my husband. So right now it's in a low ponytail until it stops hurting I don't put too much tension on my hair right now cause it's soo tight right now so I'll give it a few days too loosen up.
So to maintain my braids I'll will learn how to wash and condition them, keep them moisturized and oil my scalp with my castor oil. So caring for my hair is still a must even with braids.
So I'll keep going until I reach APL.
Until then be blessed....
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